i'm just pointing out that it's much easier to soothe your guilt by throwing some money at a stranger than by making amends to a person you actually care about

you could avoid the awkwardness, and turns out to be a coward. but at least noone knows. but the guilt still there eh?!

you caused them pain. if the world is just,you have to suffer equally?

is that the issue? you're not God. You're just another screwed-up human being who needs to move on. apologize , make yourself feels better dear.