a cheesy same old tale.

You know, this scary tale doesn't start with the famous 'once upon a time'. Besides it would begin when you start thinking that you're useless. Wondering what you want in your life. That everybody keeps getting better, and you feel like in the worst shape. And every little words came out wrong. And your biggest issue in your life -whatever it is- starts magically pop up on the surface again and you feel like it is again and again and again and never a solving problem or just a good fine end. and an easy thing suddenly becomes big like very BIG with all caps. and u don't know why and u shame of that and u start hating yourself for being unreasonable and non-sense n that's why u couldn't explain it to another human being that u felt so different and worst and lonely and dramatic in a cheesy way. and it makes you such an antisocial though you hope u could share it with somebody. but u end up choosing to be quite and just wanna out from the crowd because all you want to do just ignore what everybody saying. u just want to be understood in an easy way which is impossible. u want more, but you don't know what more is and u feel like u'll never know and it makes you feel like more and more useless. and of course we couldn't forget the question 'am I crazy?' and ending up with a childish journal with an ugly words and grammar and no meaning but u still keep writing like you are the greatest writer in the world.

oh yea honey, all the girls and women from all around the world. (u  ROCK, I should say that)

am on my period. what else ,ha?

so here I am crying and smilling in my own space watching parenthood all night long.

which is awesome.

and just like that we all know from a very long time ago,

that tomorrow will be more . . and suddenly, you just feel silly.